juz some add-ons...........coz feel tt so long alr only write so few word nt v nice le ha...haha

en. lets start...
wk 8, which was last last wk...i gt two tests, bio n chem... to me every single small little test is like da3 zhang4 like tt la...bt v funny e nite b4 my chem test on fri i was v relaxed... unlike for bio... anyway i mug for quite long for both...
these daes zhenzhen n ququ often come down to 6th floor pantry to cook. i learnt nian2 gao1 fr ququ...n also bought rice flour. last time even cooked nian2 gao1 with choco inside for yang to try ^^ hohoho...bt juz for tt time i forgot to add sugar >.< lucky still gt choco inside.
abt 3 wks ago it was really damn hot...hot until i wanted to vomit. v uncomfortable. yang said he wanted to buy a small fan for me...haha so cute. cant stay in rm of course, n outside was also unbearable. so i migrated to study rm. bt study rm gt no reception for radio...o my 933...o yah btw i addicted to 933 these daes liao. haha. everytime also want to listen. tink its e random arrangement of e songs n e presence of DJs tt attract me.
n another thg bad abt study rm is e inconsiderate ppl...omg...always chitchatting...sme ppl nv even intend to lower down their volume. for once a junior was eating sth behind me...e sound...omg...v loud...n lasted for v long...its e sound of chewing thgs...haiz. n e same junior, always make alot of noise walking ard (she dunno hw to control her slippers meh?) n shifting chairs, moving her thgs...in one word she nv tink of hw e noise she make will affect others la! so in considerate...n once she yawned for 5 mins at 30 sec intervals...nv lower down her vol as usual...speechless...
last wk attended sme kind of essay writing workshop...n also met with teacher advisor. haiz...so troublesome. i want to b a lecturer n professor! 55555....seems v hard leh....n also gathered sme info abt overseas Us...555...v ex leh....
oyah last wk 16PF report out liao...i'm such a depressing person la! sme r true...bt for some comments...i tink i'm nt tt terrible rite?? anw...i'm nt gg to present it to any interviewer...
day b4 ytdae i saw yang off, bought a pair of new shoes. haha quite nice, i like alot...thou abit ex la...$13...n on tt dae it was v sweet...for e 1st time yang hug me so closely so long n so tightly...huhuhu~~~ do i sound evil?
en fr nw on i hv to control myself mre strictly le...yah...cant juz let my mind go n wandering ard...cant tink of him all e time. work hard play hard!! hohoho~~~~~
btw...last sat e yong tau foo was so nice...thx yang...hee ^^

Harlow every1...........i back liao.............

seems like i wrote my last blog hundreds yrs ago. haha pai seh.

the past one mth gt nth special. stopped gg to dance liao, thou they still gt prac. hmm dunno whether i can get e participation pts leh...anw. SRS stopped long agao liao. still go for wushu once a wk cos gt a performance at e end of july... so quite free... everyday is juz mugging n slacking n stoning...

last last sunday chen lao shi treated us lunch...in a quite high class hotel...ermz fd is ok...a lot of dessert bt i didnt eat much. 5555555....... regret le. alot of ppl eat until cant walk alr....for e ist time noticed tt e ips r such glutons.....scary

last fri went harmoc concert...v nice. really v nice. haha. memorable nite.

b4 e concert went out wif yang... watched 'kindom of heaven'. e show was nice... thou nt v happy coz yang didnt want to go concert wif me. i kno i too ren4 xing4 la.... he does nt hv e freedom.

last wk he gt field camp on wed thur n fri. i said i hv to c him when he back fr club, no matter hw late. he also agreed. i even started preparing. in e end he said we meet tml k? actlly i knew it. nvm nvm nvm.

i'm sure of my feeling 2wards him. v sure.

bt time for us to part is cming.............................................

我曾勇敢满身伤痛扬起笑脸 很近地站在幸福前

其实一直想要来写的，不过真的是万事开头难，每次打开电脑开了窗口就搁那儿晾着，直到关机了才想起来，不过只是想一想然后继续关机^^
所以今天我下定决心要写~~其实也不单纯是决心的问题。怕我自己又想太多吧。不过怕也没用，我还是会想太多，所以管他呢。

很多时候觉得自己还真是弱呢，这么点屁大的事情就洋洋洒洒那么多感慨。我就是这样，发生一件比较小的事情就会想挺多，推算到以后有什么更严重更伤心的大事会是什么样的心情。怎么说呢，事情的大小也不是我定的吧。走过了就好。
虽然是小事，想想还是挺难过。太有感情的过吧，加上离胜利太近了。突然了解了曾经看过的很多伤心故事中的人物。比如在和海南的比赛最后传错球的樱木，比如最后时刻失了金牌的运动员，比如眼睁睁失去至爱的男人女人，父亲母亲。我也不知道为什么一件小小的伤心事会让我对别的伤心事感触如此之深。可能是经历过，多少有了一个尺码吧。读这些故事的时候，真的能感受他们的心痛，以前没有的。表面上看不出什么，一样是不笑的表情。只是在心理狠狠的难过。
现在才真正懂得扬去年的心痛，可惜的是我当时真的不懂，只能呆呆的陪他不笑。伤心事，经历过才会懂吧。我是指那种自己眼睁睁造成的遗憾。刚刚电话里就想跟他说对不起，后来就说了。一想到我在他最难过的时候不能懂他的伤心，我不能对自己释怀。
经历和理解，真的是很珍贵的东西。

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两个星期也就这样过去了。挺平淡的，我都忘了。27号椰子生日，3号屈屈。赶作业。29日sports day, 喝了3杯免费的美禄。烦着武术的exco。真是，那种既舍不得又烦的感觉，真的让人心烦意乱。主要是每个人slack了，什么事都乱七八糟的，感觉很乱吧。
this time...i'm really leaving...

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时间 让痛苦不平都沉淀
怀念 让整个心情在浮现
我有太多感觉必须再见一面
不能好聚好散的爱会让心纠结
离别 不代表磨灭一切
谎言 有些时候也许是体贴
你用泪光回应我的真诚谅解
明天我们都有艳阳天
你是心中的花园
经常开玫瑰 偶尔飘落叶
爱在心中的花园
充满想念 留驻一个季节
纪念我曾勇敢满身伤痛扬起笑脸
很近地站在幸福前

当我给了你原谅也给了自己远方
这爱不再是眼前一面墙变成身后月光