如题。
差不多就这样了。有时候觉得很乱，尝试着细细追溯最后都是回到同一个源头。又有什么办法。神也救不了我。
突然觉得“没救了“这个词特别适合用来形容我。虽然好像是简单了一点……不过真的好恰当耶 ^^
前几天终于不小心把小雯送给我的杯子摔坏了。不知道为什么我一直觉得我有一天会把这个杯子摔坏，可能是因为我太喜欢这个杯子了吧。所以我每次握着它的时候都特别神经质，甚至有过把它放在桌上出去然后又特地回来一趟把它朝远离桌子边缘的地方推一推。结果它终于还是坏了。
真庆幸我对我的人生没有任何预感 =.=
礼拜一的时候去买了新的杯子和水瓶。杯子好小，用不惯。算了……用用就用惯了吧。不过很喜欢那个水瓶。希望可以一直用下去。我不觉得我会把它弄丢。
发现有拥有一样自己特别特别喜欢的东西真的非常开心的事情啊。而且不是范进中举那种开心。是特别安心的那种开心 =） 喜欢新笔盒，喜欢水瓶。哦~~
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Friday, August 19, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
blue daezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
e fear comes...
when i sit at my desk in study rm, staring at the files n notes piled high up...i can feel nth bt fear.
ytdae spent nearly e whole DAE doing MATHS. do until v v fed up...didnt expect i hv 2 spend so much time on maths also. then i look at my horrendous bio chem n phy file plus the killer GP n say byebye to myself.
when i sit at my desk in study rm, staring at the files n notes piled high up...i can feel nth bt fear.
ytdae spent nearly e whole DAE doing MATHS. do until v v fed up...didnt expect i hv 2 spend so much time on maths also. then i look at my horrendous bio chem n phy file plus the killer GP n say byebye to myself.
e pencilcase~~
ytdae when i was complaining abt the camera here i tried 2 fix it...n i did it...
WOOHOO! i'm a genius.
hmm on picture it does nt lk as nice as e actual thg...
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
one of e past few days was a nice day...
tts bcos ballball gave me a BIG surprise...wahaha...
dunno whether it was a coincident tt i went study room late after dinner...then i realised sth was wrong with my table...it looked a bit different...
sn i found out wat was diff...a hairy jumbo pencil case 赫然 appeared in my sight...
was a bit stunned, cos its juz few days ago my klsmate saw my pathetic pencilcase n told me he was gg to buy me 1 as my bthday pres. was wondering hw cme it comes so quickly 1...n appear in my hostel study rm sme mre...
aft a few seconds i blieved i knew who did it le...so i went play ball~~haha!
really v happy leh, startled me. n i like it ALOT. nice colour, nice fur, nice shape, nice size, nice everythg. too bad my camera spoiled le...i try to put a pic here once i can k. its really so cute...不相上下 with ballball WAKAKA
n 我又被移动和碰到了 by ball's 3 pg long note dropped in the pencilcase...hmm...nt v gd to repeat here but ok, v moved n touched...haha.
feel v gd to hv such a gd fren like this ^^
oyah, juz b4 the surprise, aft dinner, we went ecp walk walk... saw a lot hostel ppl there leh, tink everybody likes to go there. didnt mean to go so far de, bt eventually we did walk to e seaside. the breeze was comfortable...n we sat there watched e sky turns dark fr bright. n toked...quite alot, abt everythg. include...bio thgy...hahahahaz...n of course mre serious stuff. anw...tt was a nice dae. 7 Aug.
last wk happen to be able to meet yang everyday. went fetch him on monday aft school, n sent him back on tues aft schl. on wed aft dinner he suddenly called me n said he's coming out...was so surprised n happy, jumped up n went fetch him. though abit disappointed when i saw him in his uniform. haha. the nxt day i gotto fo schl, so he bked in himself, bt at nite called me again saying he gt one day off the next day...friday...
so we went out on fri. thou i was in great pain n bad mood =(. he managed to mend them...=) hehe.actually nth much la, was mugging with him in mp lib...tts all.
then sat he gotto bk in at marina bay in the morning...it was really early, he said he has to take the 1st bus available. i said i want to see him off but he didnt want, saying its too early too dark n too dangerous, no bus sme mre. so i went borrow a bike immediately on fri nite n msg him tt i've decided to go. he 勉强 agree at last...he was nt in gd mood bcoz of his father n we almost quarreled. 555...i juz want to see him mah...
too bad on sat morning when i opened my eyes it was 6:20am alr...we set the meeting time at 6:30 de. panic...arh....jumped up n dashed out of rm. tot i would make him late, or i cldnt see him le cos he may nt wait for me. the mre i tink e mre i panic...the faster i ride my bike. then i realised tt gt bus alr! so i parked e bike at mp lib n took 196. e lucky thg was...yang was late also. he was juz downstairs of his house when my bus reached katong shopping centre. phew...hw shld i react to his late this time...then he boarded my bus.
then sunday the same...i woke up late again but this time i nt so panic le..n nv ride bike. took bus in front of my hostel. yang was later than on sat...ermz...i hd to alight at his bustop n wait for him...
monday also the same, except i ponned schl to go see him off..anw celebration only...i was early this time, gt up b4 6am. n he was late as usual...erm...suan le...kno he's tired...
ytdae he went his camp right aft his duty at marina bay so i cant see him until this sat. miss him...n prelim coming. the stress made me miss him mre. arghh.
dunno whether it was a coincident tt i went study room late after dinner...then i realised sth was wrong with my table...it looked a bit different...
sn i found out wat was diff...a hairy jumbo pencil case 赫然 appeared in my sight...
was a bit stunned, cos its juz few days ago my klsmate saw my pathetic pencilcase n told me he was gg to buy me 1 as my bthday pres. was wondering hw cme it comes so quickly 1...n appear in my hostel study rm sme mre...
aft a few seconds i blieved i knew who did it le...so i went play ball~~haha!
really v happy leh, startled me. n i like it ALOT. nice colour, nice fur, nice shape, nice size, nice everythg. too bad my camera spoiled le...i try to put a pic here once i can k. its really so cute...不相上下 with ballball WAKAKA
n 我又被移动和碰到了 by ball's 3 pg long note dropped in the pencilcase...hmm...nt v gd to repeat here but ok, v moved n touched...haha.
feel v gd to hv such a gd fren like this ^^
oyah, juz b4 the surprise, aft dinner, we went ecp walk walk... saw a lot hostel ppl there leh, tink everybody likes to go there. didnt mean to go so far de, bt eventually we did walk to e seaside. the breeze was comfortable...n we sat there watched e sky turns dark fr bright. n toked...quite alot, abt everythg. include...bio thgy...hahahahaz...n of course mre serious stuff. anw...tt was a nice dae. 7 Aug.
last wk happen to be able to meet yang everyday. went fetch him on monday aft school, n sent him back on tues aft schl. on wed aft dinner he suddenly called me n said he's coming out...was so surprised n happy, jumped up n went fetch him. though abit disappointed when i saw him in his uniform. haha. the nxt day i gotto fo schl, so he bked in himself, bt at nite called me again saying he gt one day off the next day...friday...
so we went out on fri. thou i was in great pain n bad mood =(. he managed to mend them...=) hehe.actually nth much la, was mugging with him in mp lib...tts all.
then sat he gotto bk in at marina bay in the morning...it was really early, he said he has to take the 1st bus available. i said i want to see him off but he didnt want, saying its too early too dark n too dangerous, no bus sme mre. so i went borrow a bike immediately on fri nite n msg him tt i've decided to go. he 勉强 agree at last...he was nt in gd mood bcoz of his father n we almost quarreled. 555...i juz want to see him mah...
too bad on sat morning when i opened my eyes it was 6:20am alr...we set the meeting time at 6:30 de. panic...arh....jumped up n dashed out of rm. tot i would make him late, or i cldnt see him le cos he may nt wait for me. the mre i tink e mre i panic...the faster i ride my bike. then i realised tt gt bus alr! so i parked e bike at mp lib n took 196. e lucky thg was...yang was late also. he was juz downstairs of his house when my bus reached katong shopping centre. phew...hw shld i react to his late this time...then he boarded my bus.
then sunday the same...i woke up late again but this time i nt so panic le..n nv ride bike. took bus in front of my hostel. yang was later than on sat...ermz...i hd to alight at his bustop n wait for him...
monday also the same, except i ponned schl to go see him off..anw celebration only...i was early this time, gt up b4 6am. n he was late as usual...erm...suan le...kno he's tired...
ytdae he went his camp right aft his duty at marina bay so i cant see him until this sat. miss him...n prelim coming. the stress made me miss him mre. arghh.
Friday, August 05, 2005
it was nt a nice dae
the GP lesson disgusted me. choy kpt on asking 'ram i writing 4 u?' n tt stupid reason made the whole discussion appear 'lively' n 'engaging'. choy muz b laughing at us in his heart -- this grp of stupid students r so desperate abt overseas university application...when this is concerned they r willing to force themselves to speak up during lessons...i feel myself being wan2 nong4 n disdained. esp aft my view was regarded as illogical by him.
physically i gt av todae...damn pain. v v v pain. cldnt help to go back early...cos i can only feel better if i'm walking. n this made my mood worse. when using e comp in com lab at school the machine juz swithed itself off when i was halfway thru my blog.aft i on it again the font became so funny tt it is nt recognised by the exploror so cant go any site...then when i switch to another comp it takes 5 mins to open a window...enough. i'm fed up.
better mood in aftnn cos gt yang stayed by myside.
physically i gt av todae...damn pain. v v v pain. cldnt help to go back early...cos i can only feel better if i'm walking. n this made my mood worse. when using e comp in com lab at school the machine juz swithed itself off when i was halfway thru my blog.aft i on it again the font became so funny tt it is nt recognised by the exploror so cant go any site...then when i switch to another comp it takes 5 mins to open a window...enough. i'm fed up.
better mood in aftnn cos gt yang stayed by myside.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
state of torpor induced by the beautiful life
又是很长时间没有写了。其实并不是忙或者没时间或者什么，只是觉得没什么好写的。
不是很想再逐字逐句的讲述发生的让我暂时性的情绪很激动的事情，比如哪天和扬出去什么迟到啊之类的。以前经常这样做是因为还年轻，喜欢无哩头的乱疯，发生点什么事就不想忘记。现在呢，我也不知道是不是老了还是成熟了，有点无动于衷的感觉。连最近写了篇GP response都被老师说too rational and clinical。不过有预感这成熟将会是暂时性的。到时候再说吧。
那照理说也可以抒发抒发成长的思考，说点郁闷而深沉的哲理，发表成熟的关于生活的言论。不巧的是我亲爱的同龄人们都把我想说的说了。比如奖学金，比如学业，比如对暗淡未来的恐惧，比如对成长的哀怨。实在懒得再重复，为了避免雷同还要花力气把全部rephrase一遍，多麻烦。
有时候想想像储灏这样的人还真是牛逼，居然可以一门心思的钻研申请国外大学的诸多事宜，一点没有倦怠的倾向。不知道什么动力那么强大呵，好佩服。
不是很想再逐字逐句的讲述发生的让我暂时性的情绪很激动的事情，比如哪天和扬出去什么迟到啊之类的。以前经常这样做是因为还年轻，喜欢无哩头的乱疯，发生点什么事就不想忘记。现在呢，我也不知道是不是老了还是成熟了，有点无动于衷的感觉。连最近写了篇GP response都被老师说too rational and clinical。不过有预感这成熟将会是暂时性的。到时候再说吧。
那照理说也可以抒发抒发成长的思考，说点郁闷而深沉的哲理，发表成熟的关于生活的言论。不巧的是我亲爱的同龄人们都把我想说的说了。比如奖学金，比如学业，比如对暗淡未来的恐惧，比如对成长的哀怨。实在懒得再重复，为了避免雷同还要花力气把全部rephrase一遍，多麻烦。
有时候想想像储灏这样的人还真是牛逼，居然可以一门心思的钻研申请国外大学的诸多事宜，一点没有倦怠的倾向。不知道什么动力那么强大呵，好佩服。
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