我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚
因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱
我不需要谁温柔安抚

请放心 我很快能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭
我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路 挡不住你追逐

不准哭
我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福

如果我消失不见
你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊我很在乎
因为爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是我的最后让步
爱情就到这里结束
我们不得不不得不屈服
只能笑

不准哭
我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路 挡不住你追逐
不准哭
我学不会微笑祝福
祝你找到
祝你找到对的幸福


=trying to achieve this=

memorable day again.

yes. yang, jingyang, mr kwan keng yong, has officially become my ex.

after 2 years 8 months 6 days.

fast rite? sudden rite?

i am so tired of writing anything now... wait until i am more calmed down.

and my heart is so painful. i can feel it.

i dun mean to complain but i just HAVE TO...

days are becoming more and more like hell... work comes at a 排山倒海的阵势...
whole cny break was studying plus minimal visit to relatives. then got assignment deadline on the day i come back singapore. so was writing just before i board the flight, and continued writing after i got off the flight until i finally finished it before midnite...
then monday and tuesday were two midterms. after that tot can rest already, but still got dance rehearsals cos there will be two concerts coming up really soon. then as usual wednesday got lab, and have to hand up report by friday. so work til very late day before yesterday. then suddenly realise essay dealine is this friday (yes, which was yesterday, so i AM late), so dying writing.

and the stooopid interhall dance today kept me in KR hall from 9pm to 12:30am.

ok lets see what i have got from now until end of next week.

saturday, need to finish up essay; wushu training; talk to yang; hall activity interview; and yuzhu's birthday celebration.
sunday, diedie have to finish up essay; dance; wushu.
monday, lesson until 7pm, then got tuition, definitely no time for dinner. may got dance also.
tuesday, lesson from 10am to 6pm without break.
wednesday, lesson from 9am to 6am with 1 hour break. deadline of online assignment. lab report coming up. chinese dace concert.
thursday, physics test. chinese dance concert.
friday, usp test. have to hand up lab report.

how do i squeeze time out to study for the two tests????

wat the hell.

my last post last year says tt was a memorable day cos it never rained.

it is now raining. not outside, but inside me here.

I AM SAD.



他说，情人节快乐。
却找不到那三个字。应该有的三个字。


这个invisible home，突然间变成我最不堪回首的地方。


他说谢谢你在我最失落，最低潮的时候，陪着我，带给我那么多的快乐与欢笑。
现在，谁来陪着我？

today is such a memorable day!!

...bcos today NEVER RAIN!! wahahahaha

soooo happy to see and feel sunshine again! and the temperature is just nice, not too hot not too cold. and no need to walk like skating and can wash clothes liao! hehehe...

so in order to celebrate, i went science canteen to eat lunch. and i lost my transponder on the way =.=
(for those who don't know, transponder is a device used to lock/unlock my room door and the door of the toilet at my level, functions l ike a key) sianz... went back all the way but still couldnt find it. haizhaiz...can only leave my door open... and a new transpoder costs S$42!! haizhaiz...乐极生悲...

i h_a_t_e r_a_i_n_i_n_g d_a_y_z

looks like it has been RAINING for zillion of years...
i really REALLY miss SUNSHINE!!!
cant wash clothes, cant walk properly, plenty of mosquitoes, mould grow on shoes that never dries...
the only nice thing might be yah, it can be nice weather to sleep. but the worst thing is I CANT ENJOY IT!!!

well...i'm soooo fed up with the stupid raining days. which has been lasted for one whole week...or is it more? with break of at most 2 to 3 hours...

+.= +.= +.=

anyway a few nice things happened today.

first, i managed to lower the price of two DJs from UFM1003 by $200 and managed to get some kind of air time for xqrj. yeah =)

second, tickets finally sent to printing!!! after being stucked by all the stupid small probs...finally! the best is i can actually collect it TMR! =D

third, met finalists and briefed them succussfully =.+

fourth, saiho actually sent me a christmas card VIA POST! omg...i really luv it when ppl writes to me...=D =D he used so many stickers and coloured pen and decoration lo... so nice =) actually i shld hv realised he wanted to send me card when he asked my address but i thought he was joking! haha...then i knew its him when i saw the la bi xiao xin sticker on the envelope...he used it last year for the new yr card he gave me also hahaz

fifth, finally managed to meet yang and had a nice dinner time together although the burger was not so nice and toooo big. i like my outfit today and i luv how yang looks in his dark purple shirt, black pants and black leather shoes! =D

=.+ =.+ =.+

well a few bad things also.

i lost another umbrella after i lost mine on christmas eve. arghhh.

yang lent me his umbrella, and i broke it severly when i tried to dry it =,=

wore the SUPER slippery slippers. was like skating all the time. almost fell when jump down from the bus.

suddenly got a lot more things to do on top of my already lot of things. tts why i'm still here now...at this unearthly hour...

like my 1st of the pangkor trip...

like my 1st of my pangkor trip... happy with my courage in going to malaysia alone, touched by xqrj ppl de warm concern, fancinated by the shooting stars in the clear sky at night, entertained a lottt by the banana boat and diving~

yup =====