总感觉我疲于奔命在两个截然不同的世界。更要命的是疲于奔命的结果是茫然不知所终不知所属。
我的初三6。我的圣中18怪。我的VJ。现在是我的KEVII。
都是我的。又有哪一个是我的？
都逃不了一个一个消失成背影的命运吧。
整理房间的时候，俊哲说我有好多回忆啊……
这对一个总生活在过去的我来说，可能并不是一件好事。
有点怕看别人的blog了。也许是因为它揭露了太多人不为人知的那一面，平时嘻嘻哈哈妙语连珠的人类们突然间全都沉重起来。害怕知道每个人都有自己的悲伤这个事实。
我看渊岩的blog是少数几个跟作者本人一样psychotic的吧~哈哈
有点语无伦次了。其实我是想说点别的的……
还是躲在自己小小的invisible home，跟它一起隐型。任那一头的msn space杂草丛生，变成个荒山野岭。原谅我的嘎然而止。我是故意的。
回家了。
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
OYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
people who are still having exams, please refrain from reading this entry...
HAHAHAHA I'M FREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
ok not so big deal.
but still, =D.
actually this time not that stressed during exam time... compared to last sem. maybe cos i have only 4 papers (2 modules not examinable), and for 2 of them i have studied cos i was forced to do so in preparation for CA2. so in the sense, CA2 is good =,=
but really stressed during reading week and a couple of weeks before reading week, becos of the two NOT EXAMINABLE modules. papers after papers after projects after projects...wah sei... people saw me floating around like my national treasure all the time... @.@
and also my MA1506... it has 7 chapters in total but until start of reading week i was still at chapter 2! why? cos it only had one CA which only covered chapter 1!... so was very very chiong for math during reading week also... muz give BIG BIG BIG thanks to junzhe... thx soooooo much for helping me... i would have be dead without u (oops sounds scandulous LOL)
now that exams are over, i can finally have my (well-deserved?) rest... FULL TIME rest... i will fly back on sunday morning and rot in my little blue room in Nanjing... watch TV everyday... play with my parents... hang out with old friends... pull my parents to do exercise (=,=)... hahahahahaha
ok maybe cannot switch to slack mode yet... i'm flying off at 8am on sunday and now i have just started to pack my stuff... and i need to CLEAR MY ROOM!!! arhhhhhh
another good thing about flying away from s'pore is... to get myself out of something for awhile, so that i can think through something carefully... and maybe discuss with my parents also... have been controlling myself not to think about those stuff during exam time. now i cant run away from it anymore.
HAHAHAHA I'M FREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
ok not so big deal.
but still, =D.
actually this time not that stressed during exam time... compared to last sem. maybe cos i have only 4 papers (2 modules not examinable), and for 2 of them i have studied cos i was forced to do so in preparation for CA2. so in the sense, CA2 is good =,=
but really stressed during reading week and a couple of weeks before reading week, becos of the two NOT EXAMINABLE modules. papers after papers after projects after projects...wah sei... people saw me floating around like my national treasure all the time... @.@
and also my MA1506... it has 7 chapters in total but until start of reading week i was still at chapter 2! why? cos it only had one CA which only covered chapter 1!... so was very very chiong for math during reading week also... muz give BIG BIG BIG thanks to junzhe... thx soooooo much for helping me... i would have be dead without u (oops sounds scandulous LOL)
now that exams are over, i can finally have my (well-deserved?) rest... FULL TIME rest... i will fly back on sunday morning and rot in my little blue room in Nanjing... watch TV everyday... play with my parents... hang out with old friends... pull my parents to do exercise (=,=)... hahahahahaha
ok maybe cannot switch to slack mode yet... i'm flying off at 8am on sunday and now i have just started to pack my stuff... and i need to CLEAR MY ROOM!!! arhhhhhh
another good thing about flying away from s'pore is... to get myself out of something for awhile, so that i can think through something carefully... and maybe discuss with my parents also... have been controlling myself not to think about those stuff during exam time. now i cant run away from it anymore.
Monday, April 23, 2007
wat to doooooo
对我好对我好好到无路可退
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪
于是那么迂回
一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味
却不让你想入非非
就让我们虚伪
有感情 别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美
眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为甚么竟然防备别人给我献媚
不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给
好像小偷一样卑微
就让我们虚伪
有感情 别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美
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昨天以前，这首歌是我的全部想法。
现在……我不知道该怎么办。
越来越搞不清楚自己了，真是讨厌。
啊！！！！！！！！！！
吼！！！！！！！！！！！！！
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪
于是那么迂回
一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味
却不让你想入非非
就让我们虚伪
有感情 别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美
眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为甚么竟然防备别人给我献媚
不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给
好像小偷一样卑微
就让我们虚伪
有感情 别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美
================
昨天以前，这首歌是我的全部想法。
现在……我不知道该怎么办。
越来越搞不清楚自己了，真是讨厌。
啊！！！！！！！！！！
吼！！！！！！！！！！！！！
=the one?=
Thursday, April 12, 2007
hopeless me...
我会发着呆 然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍 你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪 模糊了视线
你会看不见
1 project, 1 essay, 1 presentation, 1 field trip, and 1 hopeless brain filled with a stupid pig... 1.5 days. i'm god-like.
Monday, April 09, 2007
真的远去
again... i'm blogging at my busiest time =.=
终于能真切地感觉到他的渐行渐远
在休止符突然间出现的一个半月后
这几天之前 还总是不能相信他就这样走出了我的生活
知道么 那种奇怪的感觉
那种觉得他还应该在身边 但又不在身边的感觉
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
现在真的感受得到 他远了
他在慢慢的变成一个背影
戒痕消失了 完全找不到了
只留下比其他手指瘦了一圈的左手中指
原来带了两年多的戒指
只一个月就可以让它存在过的证据灰飞烟灭
更让我觉得自己可笑的是
戒指又不是你送的 我何苦在这里自欺欺人？
手机的welcome message一直没有变过
‘如果有一天 我不再出现 你是否开始想念’
之前放是因为喜欢心微的那首‘有一天’
你看到之后还生气了 说我乱讲
看 我没乱说吧
一个半月完全没有联系了
之前还说做回普通朋友
恩 我看 我死了你都不会知道吧？
无所谓
我有朋友 有世界
有学业让我忘掉一切 有假期让我好好休息
我肯定会好好的
好得一塌糊涂
只是 可惜不是你
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那时你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
终于能真切地感觉到他的渐行渐远
在休止符突然间出现的一个半月后
这几天之前 还总是不能相信他就这样走出了我的生活
知道么 那种奇怪的感觉
那种觉得他还应该在身边 但又不在身边的感觉
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
现在真的感受得到 他远了
他在慢慢的变成一个背影
戒痕消失了 完全找不到了
只留下比其他手指瘦了一圈的左手中指
原来带了两年多的戒指
只一个月就可以让它存在过的证据灰飞烟灭
更让我觉得自己可笑的是
戒指又不是你送的 我何苦在这里自欺欺人？
手机的welcome message一直没有变过
‘如果有一天 我不再出现 你是否开始想念’
之前放是因为喜欢心微的那首‘有一天’
你看到之后还生气了 说我乱讲
看 我没乱说吧
一个半月完全没有联系了
之前还说做回普通朋友
恩 我看 我死了你都不会知道吧？
无所谓
我有朋友 有世界
有学业让我忘掉一切 有假期让我好好休息
我肯定会好好的
好得一塌糊涂
只是 可惜不是你
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那时你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
= just miss u a bit. tts all. =
Friday, April 06, 2007
dead me is writing blog...
oyes i was killed by the physics and bio-D CA on tuesday.
we were supposed to have 1 and a half hours to finish the PC1143 CA, but i guess most of us finish the 25 MCQs in like 40 minutes? not because i am zai ok... its because there was little complicated calculation or integration, but a lot of confusing conceptal stuff. so if you do not know or not sure about it, that's it! no matter how much time u spend u also dunno the rite ans. so very very sian alr... plus the test was like if u leave blank, u get zero, if u got it wrong u will get minus mark! arghhh so gross
i though i was quite well prepared for my bio-D but i was WRONG. the first word in the first question got me stunned. dunno wat the hell it is... and i dun have a textbook, so cannot flip to the index part and look for the word, like what other people do. and my essay was also shitty... short and untidy, a lot of wrong info... haizhaiz... and I HATE TAKING OPENBOOK TEST IN LT! the table was soooo small la how do you think i can put all my books and notes on it??? and some more my table was tilted so all my things kept sliding down...
in one word, frustrated!
in case u r wondering why i had only 2 tests... on the day just before tuesday, after i spent the whole morning and afternoon studying the 3rd test, the prof emailed us and say 'o lets put it on next tuesday'...
still... frustrated...
===
things coming up:
Tuesday: UAR2204 test, UAR2204 Final Project DUE
Wednesday: MasteringPhysics online assessment 5 DUE
Friday: USE2304 Final Project DUE, UAR2204 Final Project presentation
..
..
..
and then its the start of reading week... and my first exam is on 21 Apr, saturday...
orz...
jiayou bah...
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oyah, muz thank kane and colin for helping me on my UAR2204 sonic art final project =D big big thanks!!!
===
i seem to think less about him le... thanks to all my friends in hall, in PGP (esp the round thing in blk 2), and in Australia =) and baba mama
or is it because i have to shift my attention to the endless school work...hahahahahahaha
===
o i went National Museum of Singapore at Stamford Road last thursday. it was for my USE2304 essay, but i recommend u all to go as well... it's not an outdated place. very fun and high-tech! and can learn a lot of expected things. student price only $5. singaporeans, u all should be proud of this museum...
we were supposed to have 1 and a half hours to finish the PC1143 CA, but i guess most of us finish the 25 MCQs in like 40 minutes? not because i am zai ok... its because there was little complicated calculation or integration, but a lot of confusing conceptal stuff. so if you do not know or not sure about it, that's it! no matter how much time u spend u also dunno the rite ans. so very very sian alr... plus the test was like if u leave blank, u get zero, if u got it wrong u will get minus mark! arghhh so gross
i though i was quite well prepared for my bio-D but i was WRONG. the first word in the first question got me stunned. dunno wat the hell it is... and i dun have a textbook, so cannot flip to the index part and look for the word, like what other people do. and my essay was also shitty... short and untidy, a lot of wrong info... haizhaiz... and I HATE TAKING OPENBOOK TEST IN LT! the table was soooo small la how do you think i can put all my books and notes on it??? and some more my table was tilted so all my things kept sliding down...
in one word, frustrated!
in case u r wondering why i had only 2 tests... on the day just before tuesday, after i spent the whole morning and afternoon studying the 3rd test, the prof emailed us and say 'o lets put it on next tuesday'...
still... frustrated...
===
things coming up:
Tuesday: UAR2204 test, UAR2204 Final Project DUE
Wednesday: MasteringPhysics online assessment 5 DUE
Friday: USE2304 Final Project DUE, UAR2204 Final Project presentation
..
..
..
and then its the start of reading week... and my first exam is on 21 Apr, saturday...
orz...
jiayou bah...
===
oyah, muz thank kane and colin for helping me on my UAR2204 sonic art final project =D big big thanks!!!
===
i seem to think less about him le... thanks to all my friends in hall, in PGP (esp the round thing in blk 2), and in Australia =) and baba mama
or is it because i have to shift my attention to the endless school work...hahahahahahaha
===
o i went National Museum of Singapore at Stamford Road last thursday. it was for my USE2304 essay, but i recommend u all to go as well... it's not an outdated place. very fun and high-tech! and can learn a lot of expected things. student price only $5. singaporeans, u all should be proud of this museum...
Thursday, March 29, 2007
dead...
who is more power than me..
let's look at what i have got here:
1.physics lab report, due tomorrow 4pm (got lesson from 10-12am, n 2-4pm, so need to hand up before 2pm)
2. usp singapore studies essay, due next monday.
and the best of all...
3. THREE CAs on next TUESDAY.
physics + life sciences + sonic art and sciences.
in short, i'm dead.
let's look at what i have got here:
1.physics lab report, due tomorrow 4pm (got lesson from 10-12am, n 2-4pm, so need to hand up before 2pm)
2. usp singapore studies essay, due next monday.
and the best of all...
3. THREE CAs on next TUESDAY.
physics + life sciences + sonic art and sciences.
in short, i'm dead.
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