German vocab test happily joined in.
3 CAs on 21 Feb, Thursday! WooHoo!!
Monday, February 11, 2008
Saturday, February 09, 2008
days go by
it has been long.
and really a lot of things happened.
my parents came and left.
zhe flied back to China.
yuanlin came to KE7 wushu.
XQ. Chinese Drama.
and one day i was suddenly inspired somehow and realised hey i can let go =)
mom and dad's stay was a tiring but sweet period of time.
XQ... jiayou.
CD was good.
and i think i should get myself out of this.
this morning parents left. very deserted. alone for the whole day, barely talked.
mug in lib til it closes. then got the strong urge of calling zhe.
after trying 2 expired cards, i went look for other ppl to borrow.
after it failed again, i logon to skype and paid by my credit card 10 euro.
after i tried 3 times, he picks up =)
zhe, thank you.
from now on its again a hectic 2 weeks.
3 CAs, 2 performances, dance practices, YEP marketing and bazzar, all squeezed before 22 Feb.
jiayou gal.
and really a lot of things happened.
my parents came and left.
zhe flied back to China.
yuanlin came to KE7 wushu.
XQ. Chinese Drama.
and one day i was suddenly inspired somehow and realised hey i can let go =)
mom and dad's stay was a tiring but sweet period of time.
XQ... jiayou.
CD was good.
and i think i should get myself out of this.
this morning parents left. very deserted. alone for the whole day, barely talked.
mug in lib til it closes. then got the strong urge of calling zhe.
after trying 2 expired cards, i went look for other ppl to borrow.
after it failed again, i logon to skype and paid by my credit card 10 euro.
after i tried 3 times, he picks up =)
zhe, thank you.
from now on its again a hectic 2 weeks.
3 CAs, 2 performances, dance practices, YEP marketing and bazzar, all squeezed before 22 Feb.
jiayou gal.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
start it brand new
其实与他并不是很陌生。
但是我不是sm2，所以好像不应该跟他有什么关系，更不应该跟着瞎搅合，一点悲伤也会让人觉得充满了应酬性质，是不是？
不过我不准备管这些。
我们交谈虽然不多，但是一点都没有客套和虚伪的成分。
就凭这点。
很突然。没有任何前因就到了后果。
不想做任何猜测和推断，尤其是不负责任的。是因为两年多前相似的事件。
死亡神圣。除了尊重，活着的人不应该有其他任何态度。
我相信他一定有他的理由。所以没关系，你只是早了一点离开。大家谁又不是过客。能摆脱那些讨厌的人应该是件开心的事 =)
作为一个萍水之交的朋友，请你走好。
and start it brand new.
唯一担心的，是你的父母亲人吧。不知道我能做什么。但真的希望一切都会好好的。虽然将心比心，这伤口几乎不可能愈合。
但是我不是sm2，所以好像不应该跟他有什么关系，更不应该跟着瞎搅合，一点悲伤也会让人觉得充满了应酬性质，是不是？
不过我不准备管这些。
我们交谈虽然不多，但是一点都没有客套和虚伪的成分。
就凭这点。
很突然。没有任何前因就到了后果。
不想做任何猜测和推断，尤其是不负责任的。是因为两年多前相似的事件。
死亡神圣。除了尊重，活着的人不应该有其他任何态度。
我相信他一定有他的理由。所以没关系，你只是早了一点离开。大家谁又不是过客。能摆脱那些讨厌的人应该是件开心的事 =)
作为一个萍水之交的朋友，请你走好。
and start it brand new.
唯一担心的，是你的父母亲人吧。不知道我能做什么。但真的希望一切都会好好的。虽然将心比心，这伤口几乎不可能愈合。
Friday, January 18, 2008
am i wrong
getting tired.
累……了？
压力
敏感
保护
自尊
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
那种一直拼命在抵抗，轻而易举就被压回，又拼命反抗的感觉。真的很累。
很累很累很累很累很累很累！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
自己心理给的压力，比什么都让人精疲力竭。
难道我又做了错的决定。
但是好像又是因为我太烂的缘故？
说白了，我就是无法忍受这个事实。
认输？不认输？
都没有什么好结果。
要不 就心里憋屈一辈子
要不 就累一生
累……了？
压力
敏感
保护
自尊
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
压力
那种一直拼命在抵抗，轻而易举就被压回，又拼命反抗的感觉。真的很累。
很累很累很累很累很累很累！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
自己心理给的压力，比什么都让人精疲力竭。
难道我又做了错的决定。
但是好像又是因为我太烂的缘故？
说白了，我就是无法忍受这个事实。
认输？不认输？
都没有什么好结果。
要不 就心里憋屈一辈子
要不 就累一生
Sunday, January 13, 2008
stay
i realise i dun like his confidence.
really really dun like.
i feel like pouring icy-cold water everytime i see he starts his narssicism. maybe a not-so-terrible version of narssicism.
dunno why.
i shldnt feel it this way.
===
words.
yah words. not even promises.
it's good for me to know that not all the words he said are going to be realised. and i'm constantly reminding myself about this.
i tell myself hey girl, u can just listen, and appreciate the fact that he actually bother to say those words, and then dun believe a nut of it.
but the fact that he has said those words always gives an expectation. no matter how low it is, it is still an EXPECTATION.
====
我们想不犯错误，不留伤害。是因为都曾经被伤过么？
所以我们早早把一切挑明，早早对甜言蜜语加以解释，早早及时批判自己之前说一些话时的不成熟， 早早逼自己和对方直面现实。
是为了不留伤害，还是为自己留一条退路？
只是我不知道，我们是不是得到了想要的结果。
====
想让自己不在乎。
你不在乎，我就更不在乎。
你不会不顾一切，我就更不会。
你肯定的说你不会为了我放弃一切，我就更肯定更快的说我也不会。
我不想落下风。
算是之前的教训么？
笑。
现在还稍微有一点逼自己的味道。
别太留恋你的怀抱，别太留恋你的吻，别太留恋你拥着我的手。
希望会越来越习惯，直到自然。
====
已经只有很少的人可以看到这里。
我不想在这里写字还要有所顾忌。
=====
我就是一个太放不下的人！！！！！
说了那么多废话，我什么时候才能真正做到？？？？？？
really really dun like.
i feel like pouring icy-cold water everytime i see he starts his narssicism. maybe a not-so-terrible version of narssicism.
dunno why.
i shldnt feel it this way.
===
words.
yah words. not even promises.
it's good for me to know that not all the words he said are going to be realised. and i'm constantly reminding myself about this.
i tell myself hey girl, u can just listen, and appreciate the fact that he actually bother to say those words, and then dun believe a nut of it.
but the fact that he has said those words always gives an expectation. no matter how low it is, it is still an EXPECTATION.
====
我们想不犯错误，不留伤害。是因为都曾经被伤过么？
所以我们早早把一切挑明，早早对甜言蜜语加以解释，早早及时批判自己之前说一些话时的不成熟， 早早逼自己和对方直面现实。
是为了不留伤害，还是为自己留一条退路？
只是我不知道，我们是不是得到了想要的结果。
====
想让自己不在乎。
你不在乎，我就更不在乎。
你不会不顾一切，我就更不会。
你肯定的说你不会为了我放弃一切，我就更肯定更快的说我也不会。
我不想落下风。
算是之前的教训么？
笑。
现在还稍微有一点逼自己的味道。
别太留恋你的怀抱，别太留恋你的吻，别太留恋你拥着我的手。
希望会越来越习惯，直到自然。
====
已经只有很少的人可以看到这里。
我不想在这里写字还要有所顾忌。
=====
我就是一个太放不下的人！！！！！
说了那么多废话，我什么时候才能真正做到？？？？？？
=不知道是对还是错
我只是 不想再失去你=
Saturday, January 12, 2008
it is coming near...
spent most of the time these few days with zhe.
teaegg is happy being with zhe =)
====
went vivo walk walk ang had 雪之烧 for dinner the day after i'm back. best dinner i had ever had with zhe. we ate for 2 1/2 hours, from 4:30 to 7+pm wahahahaha
and got this waiter who came to teach us how to make patterns out of the ice-cream frying
great time ^^
====
yesterday spent the whole day at MPSH6 to support zhe in his Sepak Takraw IHG. and be the video woman ;)
we lost to both KR and TH, so couldnt make it to the semifinals. but i was not too sad, so were zhe and his teammates, cos apparently they tried their best and had great fun playing the game. cool match!
====
school starting soon.
feel it gets nearer especially when i think about wushu training starting soon...
and our coaches ran away
4 out of 5 days 8am, 2 days 8pm, 2 level 3 modules.
all the best for myself!
teaegg is happy being with zhe =)
====
went vivo walk walk ang had 雪之烧 for dinner the day after i'm back. best dinner i had ever had with zhe. we ate for 2 1/2 hours, from 4:30 to 7+pm wahahahaha
and got this waiter who came to teach us how to make patterns out of the ice-cream frying
great time ^^
====
yesterday spent the whole day at MPSH6 to support zhe in his Sepak Takraw IHG. and be the video woman ;)
we lost to both KR and TH, so couldnt make it to the semifinals. but i was not too sad, so were zhe and his teammates, cos apparently they tried their best and had great fun playing the game. cool match!
====
school starting soon.
feel it gets nearer especially when i think about wushu training starting soon...
and our coaches ran away
4 out of 5 days 8am, 2 days 8pm, 2 level 3 modules.
all the best for myself!
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