Friday, February 26, 2010

guess how much i love you

a story of two bunnies trying to compare with each other who loves more


now i'm trying to compare with the other one who loves less, i guess

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Thursday, February 11, 2010

you have no excuses

so i overshot the time again. 15mins.


and i knew perhaps i only got 50% of the messages through.


it's quite scary to see most of the people are not listening. not interested or do not understand, i don't know. and i kept hearing chuckles. the kind that make me think my work is ridiculous. i don't know it's my mis-hearing or someone was really doing that.


so renowned for not having a good mental stability, i was easily affected and brain blacked out from time to time, and when i try to control myself, time past by mercilessly until i heard the question aloud "how much is left to go?"


in conclusion, although having skipped many impt info, i kept talking for half an hour, which makes the profs VERY UNHAPPY.


especially my supervisor, who has warned me explicitly about my unfocusedly long presentation problem a few days ago.


man.



well, i will improve. today bad mood, shall relax.

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

全身不舒服。


一切都好,只缺烦恼。


学弟学妹分手。


想了想感情这回事,发现无话可说。


跳跃说好听了是跳跃,其实就是懒得费劲寻找合适的转折或连词。其实还有点对默契的期待。其实也可以说不为他人着想和以自我为中心。

Monday, February 08, 2010

Q.E.D.




I've proved my proposition now as you can see
so let's both be associative and free
and by corollary this shows you and I to be
purely inseparable
Q.E.D.

Thursday, February 04, 2010

wasauf warte ich

最近睡眠不好。


几天前晚上突然肠胃痛,折腾到很晚才睡着。第二天心情溶剂到12点才踏进房间,搞搞弄弄也是早不了。昨天做了一个冗长而繁复的梦,醒来之后觉得倒像过完了一天该睡觉了。累得不行。


反正这几天全身都处在一个比较慌乱的状态,还好没有祸及心态就是了。我能清晰地听到自己的心跳声。低头能看到胸口嘭~嘭~嘭~ 地起伏。
手伸开,控制不住地抖。刚才大腿内侧也开始这样。


亚健康了…… 估计睡少了的过。


申请了3个EM scholarship,一个说让我进但不定给不给钱,一个拒了,还剩一个我期待它能填补空白fill up给进又给钱这个状态。

当然,如果ETH让我进又给钱那就更好咧。


我发现我最近真是贱得可以。


我tm到底在等什么?


睡觉了。

Monday, February 01, 2010

think this is called 'love to be loved'

其实吧我就是一个特别需要别人关怀的小屁孩。


我要人注意我,关心我,喜欢我,陪我。


当然我不能承认这件事。否则太2了,谁还甩我啊。


所以我就告诉别人也告诉自己说我习惯一个人我只靠自己我不麻烦朋友这样子可以的。
恩,偶尔怨念一下,耍点小手段弄个人陪陪。


这很符合我的一贯作风。对自己目标要定高,对别人期望要降低。这样一来忽然有个人关心我我就觉得好感动阿。这样一来我想听人夸我的时候就先自我贬低一番,然后享受那些在乎我的人说‘才不是呢’。


哎呀妈呀……


豆豆,球球,歆歆,叔叔




我要抱抱。