er kann sich an niemanden wenden


was ist denn das jetzt??




ACH ich hasse diese LIEBE Dinge

guess how much i love you

a story of two bunnies trying to compare with each other who loves more


now i'm trying to compare with the other one who loves less, i guess

another rejection

rt.

no $$, that's it.

you have no excuses

so i overshot the time again. 15mins.


and i knew perhaps i only got 50% of the messages through.


it's quite scary to see most of the people are not listening. not interested or do not understand, i don't know. and i kept hearing chuckles. the kind that make me think my work is ridiculous. i don't know it's my mis-hearing or someone was really doing that.


so renowned for not having a good mental stability, i was easily affected and brain blacked out from time to time, and when i try to control myself, time past by mercilessly until i heard the question aloud "how much is left to go?"


in conclusion, although having skipped many impt info, i kept talking for half an hour, which makes the profs VERY UNHAPPY.


especially my supervisor, who has warned me explicitly about my unfocusedly long presentation problem a few days ago.


man.



well, i will improve. today bad mood, shall relax.

全身不舒服。


一切都好，只缺烦恼。


学弟学妹分手。


想了想感情这回事，发现无话可说。


跳跃说好听了是跳跃，其实就是懒得费劲寻找合适的转折或连词。其实还有点对默契的期待。其实也可以说不为他人着想和以自我为中心。

Q.E.D.

I've proved my proposition now as you can see
so let's both be associative and free
and by corollary this shows you and I to be
purely inseparable
Q.E.D.

wasauf warte ich

最近睡眠不好。


几天前晚上突然肠胃痛，折腾到很晚才睡着。第二天心情溶剂到12点才踏进房间，搞搞弄弄也是早不了。昨天做了一个冗长而繁复的梦，醒来之后觉得倒像过完了一天该睡觉了。累得不行。


反正这几天全身都处在一个比较慌乱的状态，还好没有祸及心态就是了。我能清晰地听到自己的心跳声。低头能看到胸口嘭~嘭~嘭~ 地起伏。
手伸开，控制不住地抖。刚才大腿内侧也开始这样。


亚健康了…… 估计睡少了的过。


申请了3个EM scholarship，一个说让我进但不定给不给钱，一个拒了，还剩一个我期待它能填补空白fill up给进又给钱这个状态。

当然，如果ETH让我进又给钱那就更好咧。


我发现我最近真是贱得可以。


我tm到底在等什么？


睡觉了。