que sera sera

juz to make myself clearer...
1. went yang's classmates housewarming on last day of last year shun4 bian4 lost my hp. back the next day noon.
2. aftnn went out settle the hp thg... xia xing's really gd tempered. bad mood. miss my hp.
3. sunday slacked for the whole day. didnt manage to do much work. bad mood. fa1 xie4 on yang again. junior came to ask abt orientation at nite...so weird toking in eng when all r prc.
4. 1st day of schl. weishan made me touched. read du2 zhe3 n was moved again. was appointed as math rep...thou ltr i gave it to lizi. gt the cca walkabt form...began to msg n run up n down b/w tan y h n the team le...mtg on wed wil b fun. elvin the idiot...fly me pigeon. wateva.
5. 2nd day. 4th jan 2005. burst my sms. yang, saiho, cheryl, junxian, xiuwen msg me at the same time. n still hv to run up find tan y h. tml he n our new tic wil cme for our meeting.
went sing with yang n kangjie again...anw todae schl ends early. n i fang elvin ge zi. didnt sing much cos tired...the toked 4 1+ hr in Mc...
6. todae. had the fun meeting.new tic was kind...even brought us cake to eat. tan y h was kind during the meeting... bt when he was toking to me i juz feel pressurised. always give the hint tt he wil close down the team... dare nt to tell the team. aiya freak..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gp was abit better than my expectation. n cant find the donation booth again. danm it. elvin finally gt me...stupid srs.

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昨天在麦当劳，三个人坐在那里，其实有点喜欢这种感觉。
可能每个人都是不一样的吧。我说喜欢一个人不是因为那个人喜欢你，所以不能说那个人感情有什么变化就一定改变你对他的感情。可能是理想化了一点我承认，其实康杰说的也对，真正到了那个时候，谁不会恨。不过，说老实话……还真是不习惯一个比我还小的小孩儿在我面前那么深沉地谈论爱情呵……^^
感情这种事情……真的不是一句“我应该怎么办”就能解决的东西。世界上最捉摸不定的东西莫过于此。要真是纯感情用事也还好推断一点，无奈现实的需要逼我们不得不掺上不同比例的理智。就乱了。
我想，没有一个人是可以玩转感情的吧。那些所谓情圣，有几个快乐呢。
女孩子的心思，确实很难捉摸。心口不一大概是女孩子的通病，越独立的女孩子，搞不好越是希望男孩子跟她在一起时间多一点，想要能对着他撒娇，能往他怀里钻。为什么呢我也不知道。但是我是女的所以我讲的应该是真的至少对我是^^……哭了绝对不会告诉你她在哭，明明难过偏说没事。有时候很讲道理，有时候什么都不管。嗨。没救了。
于是讲到他喜欢的那个女生。没想到劲扬会开口。真是有点感动。
他说其实我好羡慕你。你有自由可以随便什么时候到处乱跑，给别人惊喜什么的。
然后呆呆的看着我说对不起，跟我交往很辛苦吧。
我只能一遍一遍的在心里说谢谢你，谢谢你，谢谢你。
我真的够幸福了。谢谢你。

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可能是觉没睡够的原因。反正今天特别累。
我就是想说夹在两边的中间真的不是什么好差事。在两边听到的都不是什么好话，我还是要笑脸迎人，必要的时候不失时机的给两边分别灌输对对方的好印象（虽然好象没什么成效）。一方说的话，难听的到我这儿为止，我觉得我的一大作用就跟个软化过滤器差不多。但是我听到了呀……不得不往最坏的方面想。要担心就让我一个人担心去吧。你们不知道，tan y h 的话让我觉得他真的挨过我们这届就会把武术散掉。我就在他面前讲了个武术rm他就有反应了，说，啊？什么rm？武术rm？我赶紧改口说yah yah lion dance……然后他说哼哼我总有一天要把那个rm收回去……虽然好象是在开玩笑……但是真的很pressurise……我知道如果我跟他们说他们也只是会聚在那里骂骂。骂很长时间可能。最后还是我去说。不如不讲。不想听他们抱怨不停。
只是在这里发泄一下。没啥。

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
What will I be
Will I be pretty
Will I be rich
Here's what she said to me

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart
What lies ahead
Will we have rainbows
Day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

Now I have Children of my own
They ask their mother
What will I be
Will I be handsome
Will I be rich
I tell them tenderly

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
Que Sera, Sera

未来不是我们所能描述的