had not a very happy day.
i see i was enjoying the relationship too much. well i tot i dun need to worry too much, just follow my feeling.
but then hey of course, i have no problem pretending. really. i was just too unpretended. u saw it, i was still smiling and laughing and holding ur hand when u said all those, wasnt i? like i really dun mind.
somehow it feels like 3 March 2007, on the A2 bus, when i hold that hand tightly for the last time, smiling and telling him to say to me for the last time i love you. then alight, walk and walk without turning back.
yes yes i will not be so thoughtless any more. i shld understand the world doesnt go with my rules only, no matter how nice the rules are. there are other 6 billion ppl around, with their preferred rules. and of course i won't die of pretending. ppl pretend all the time, isnt it.
just that hmm i have to start this when u r about to leave. when we r supposed to treasure the limited time together and be closer, in the sense. bit ironic yah. but then again, who knows, it may help alleviate the uncomfortableness after u leave. always look at the bright side of life.
looks like i really treat here like a rubbish bin. haha, cos time has proven that here has only 2 readers, including myself.
just a side note, i dun imply a break-up in any way. i'm still in love, just that i may have to, erm, stay a bit further away.
exam period. no useless thought.
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