checklist

all experiment + reports + viva done.
EM ca2 done. one hour ago.

== things pending ==

uit2204 ca2
genetics ca3
experimental physics presentation
QM ca2
uit2204 final project
uar2299 paper 3
SEP detailed module mapping + recommendation letter

first five to be done this friday
last two to be done before my first paper 24 Nov

one thing at a time...

5th VIVA done.

ok. what's next?

experiments all done. 2 more reports + VIVA. 1st draft finish by today.

still got

QM ca2
EM ca2
genetics ca3
uit2204 ca2
uar2299 paper 3
experimental final presentation
SEP detailed module mapping

hmm one for each module + SEP. not that bad. even though they are cramped in one week.

let's tackle them one thing at a time.

i can do it =)

dream sweden =)

just back from SEP interview.

i got my first choice, KTH in Sweden =)

*clap clap clap*

with minimum preparation, hahaha.

... or its becuase few ppl want to go sweden i think.


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time is still flying behind my back. i wonder how it flies so fast. more than 1/sqrt(u0e0).

it's really a screwed up semester. right from the start.

a result of combination of bad luck, the courses themselves, and most importantly me myself.



still got 3 weeks. pia time.

not right

dun feel correct...

i know i'm standing alone at this place. no one will think of finding me. and i dun want to start looking for anyone either, cos i dun want to appear dependent and longing for help...

lack of confidence? yah. in both other people and myself. and perhaps love.

so i shall be totally independent, keep distance to everyone. never ever rely on anybody else or take anyone for granted, cos my own shoulder is the only backup i have. never ever show my weak side to anybody else, cos it will only make people think i'm not strong enough.

i'm grateful to have a few precious friends, and great parents. and maybe a little bit of love. but their accompany and encouragement can only make my life better. when things happen, I myslef am still the only one that i can depend on.

this invisible home might be the only support i have... cos it's me myself. never thought that it could be so important to me one day. i will tell u everything my dear home.

its difficult. 但是我知道，以后的路，我正是要一个人这样走下去。


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2dae is the 6th anniversary of me coming to singapore. i spent the best of my time here...
at least 7 more years to go, haha.
let it be.

limit?

these are what i did last week. starting from last saturday.

1 essay handed up on monday.

another one handed up on tuesday.

studied and took LSM1102 CA2 on tuesday.

dance practice on wednesday 5 to 7pm; wushu training from 8 to 11pm. on wednesday.

studies and took PC2131 electricity and magnetism on thursday.

ICN rehearsal on tuhrsday nite, together with wushu training.

prepared and went for project meeting on friday morning.

started and finished SEP initial study plan and endorsement on friday.

wushu IVP training friday night.

two project meetings today -- today is actually quite relaxed...


wow i felt so 成就感。

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so out of all these, how many did i screwed?

the essays... from my point of view they suck. but u kno, the profs may think the opposite way. judging from past experiences.

LSM1102 genetics test. ok la... confirm better than CA1 at least. it's really easy to improve from 35%.

PC2131 was a major failure. yes. 4 questions, 25% each. i think i wrote about 20% of the whole thing? out of which i confirm more than half were wrong. so i think i should be getting ard 10%. no kidding. it was like a blank paper. numb.

and i lost the file me and my partner wrote during fridays project meeting. perfect.

actually friday was not a bad day for me. i successfully settle initial module mapping and endorsement of my study plan within like 3 to 4 hours, which most of the people took 3 weeks to do. then also on friday i got to know that my QM CA1 last thursday i got 94%! wahahaha surprise surprise. i tot my QM worse than EM. now looks like EM is really the worst... i may get 6% for EM so that my QM and EM can add up to 100%... oh yeah...
o then also, i started and finished another PC2193 experiment on friday within 1 and a half hours. good. now left with 2 more experiments. but... 5 more reports...

no choice but have to eat into my sleep time. slpt 3 to 5 hrs everyday last week. plus a lot of trainings. so here pain there pain, here weak there weak. recently felt pain and sour at the back of my waist. hope its not my kidney got problem already.

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things coming up next week:

1. Tuesday: UAR2299A 50 min (!) presentation (the one which i lost the file)
2. Tuesday: UIT2204 test 1
3. Wednesday: die die must finish one more report, hand up and take viva
4. ICN on thursday night. so wushu and dance practices will take place every night i think.
5. friday: UIT2204 MATLAB test. its open book so hopefully it will be fine.
6. IVP on saturday. so more wushu trainings.
7. sunday project meeting.

ok sounds less hectic than last week.

so i guess i'll be ok.

=btw, thx zhe... i'm always brighten up by ur accompany =) =

=)

你点头了，我笑了。

其实好像我们都笑了…

呵呵，好傻 =)

拈花完毕

十分钟后吃饭，然后离开慧歆家，8点的火车。

没拈到什么好花，不过花粉应该有沾到一点。幸好我对花粉不过敏。

前院后院的红毛丹树，凉水和瓢，卧佛坐佛站佛，朋友出嫁openhouse的好吃的。还有可爱的uncle antie =）

我已经激励自己了。

有一天我在想我到底算是个什么东西
还是我会不会根本就不算东西
天天都漫无目的偏偏又想要证明真理
别人从屁股放屁我却每天每天都说要革命

就算是整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什么了不起

常常我豁出去拚了命走过却没有痕迹
可是我从不怕挖出我火热的心
手上有一个硬币反面就决定放弃嗝屁
但是啊在我心底却完完全全不想放弃

常常我闭上眼睛听到了海的呼吸是你
温柔的蓝色潮汐告诉我没有关系

就算真的整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
我不能忘记
无论是我的明天要去哪里
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去我
知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什么了不起
啦啦啦啦啦啦
明天我在哪里～～～


谢谢球和明雪 =)

这次回去，就没有旅人的感觉咯~
新加坡，NUS，我回来了 =S

还有，亲爱的祖国，还有俊哲，生日快乐=)