a dark afternoon

he is sleeping soundly beside me...

he is leaving. really soon.



...
dun be mistaken. we are at central library now.

exam post

状态比较不好



i kno everything as i don't kno.



something is disturbing me greatly.


i keep telling myself dun be so ganjiong and try to study happily. but apparently i failed.

i can feel i'm physically and mentlly perishing inside this study room...
and shit where are you

just want to write something...

had not a very happy day.

i see i was enjoying the relationship too much. well i tot i dun need to worry too much, just follow my feeling.

but then hey of course, i have no problem pretending. really. i was just too unpretended. u saw it, i was still smiling and laughing and holding ur hand when u said all those, wasnt i? like i really dun mind.

somehow it feels like 3 March 2007, on the A2 bus, when i hold that hand tightly for the last time, smiling and telling him to say to me for the last time i love you. then alight, walk and walk without turning back.

yes yes i will not be so thoughtless any more. i shld understand the world doesnt go with my rules only, no matter how nice the rules are. there are other 6 billion ppl around, with their preferred rules. and of course i won't die of pretending. ppl pretend all the time, isnt it.

just that hmm i have to start this when u r about to leave. when we r supposed to treasure the limited time together and be closer, in the sense. bit ironic yah. but then again, who knows, it may help alleviate the uncomfortableness after u leave. always look at the bright side of life.

looks like i really treat here like a rubbish bin. haha, cos time has proven that here has only 2 readers, including myself.

just a side note, i dun imply a break-up in any way. i'm still in love, just that i may have to, erm, stay a bit further away.

exam period. no useless thought.

laptop reinstalled!!

thx dear~~

now finally IE7 and office2007. ball u dun hv to laugh at me le... lol

and finally can access gmail and blogger le... =)

now reading week already. jut started mugging tonite 8 o'clock. before that was slacking...



just now was calling my mum. knew something jz said and am angry now!

NOT HAPPY!

a not-too-late post?

ok i thought i very long time never blog le. but then after counting i realised it's been only 2 weeks. haha. not that bad, in the sense =)

but well, certainly a lot of things happened during the two weekz.........

Dance Uncensored 2008. the show that tortures us dancers for the past 2 months finally ended. and they didnt get UCC hall, so we had to perform TWICE in the theater as a result. led to a super tiring day... whole day at UCC...
was only in 1 item. thankful of that, cos if i'm in even one more i would hv a lot more frustration on no time to study and do other stuff. but then i'm the lead of that item =.= and most of the time i'm in the center of the stage doing different things from the rest, and expect the audience to look at me (so AA right). andd because its a sword dance featuring a heroin (who is unfortunately played by me), i was forced to put on a wig =,= =,= =,=
enuf nonsense... dun feel like writing now....
all i want to say is... the show was superb! =) especially for KE dancers!!!! yes, we definitely stood out among all. my item turn out to be good =) and the wig never drop XD

and of course we took lots of pics. wil put up once i manage to login my gmail and blogger acct on my laptop =.= yes yes i dunno why gmail and blogger dun let me sign in

then the day after DU is hall DnD. went together with zhe. nothing special happen, just a normal DnD. a lot of pictures also. can i say zhe is handsome and i am pretty? ok i must be going crazy.

oyah we performed on NUS open house. wushu i mean. the training was xiong again. plus dance and studies, maybe that explains my lack of entries. yah that's about it.

another news is, zhe is flying off 2 May, instead of 7 Apr. so we have slightly more time together. actually not. the additional one month will be full of CA2, project deadlines and presentations and revisions for exams. some days we can only see each other during breakfast and at ard 1am before sleep. but its ok. i'm thankful that he is still near. well hope he feels the same way LOL

ok i think i won't be blogging for another long period of time. 6 CAs and 2 projects due in the next 3 weeks. and, can i shout here, I HATE MY BIOPHYSICS PROJECT GROUP.

oh and, to ball ball. you will squeeze out de. i have faith in you. (although u r very round LOL)

counted as the first *quarrel*?

cold war, rather.