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very tired day. partly because of the late sleep last nite, resulted from some stupid reasons, and partly the modelling work. didn't eat much. installed 40 pillars, and really worry about their endurance of tension. but anw.

met colin on msn in the afternoon. chatting with him somehow makes my mood better.

we are just perfect friends. why do u love me and tell me u love me?

just now when i was back in my bad mood, and had nothing to do (the only thing i wanted to do is the present. but i cant cos no space. and got too many ppl watching). wanted to find some close friends to talk to. shin v tired, ball not online. thought of u, quite badly.

but i cant talk to you, cos u are no longer in the position that can listen to me over things about him. about yang. rite?

it hurts u. and makes me uncomfortable also, cos it's like i'm making use of ur love or playing with ur love. which is extremely unfair.

wanted to tell u the first sentense at the beginning of this entry. but still, i refrained myself from typing it out on msn. still feel the urge to write it down somewhere, so i put it here, where u cant see. try not to be scandulous, when i hvnt giv u any positive answer.

we stepped out of the friend zone at the moment when i understand ur love is sincere. and irriversibly. now i'm left alone to make up my mind for this important thing, having to differetiate between some forever confusing things, and trying to follow my heart, which i dunno where it is, and at the same time trying not to hurt anyone that might get involved in this matter.

shit.

miss u, friend.