i said those words. i have to keep what i have said.

i fight with myself everyday. i stone whenever i can. whenever i'm not working for float, my brain is completely messy with all these rubbish. for many times i have the urge of telling u everything, taking u in the way i want, but at last i have to hold all back. its not a good experience. at all. but sorry, i still choose to believe that to simply follow my heart is an act of 任性, selfishness and irresponsibility.

dun want to hurt anyone, including myself, any more. i shall wait. patience is a virtue.

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have to write this out, cos otherwise i might over-suppress myself to death. to my readers, please dun simply conclude what i mean. it may not be in the way u think. this entry is for myself to understand only. yup.

sorry if i sound offensive.