what is that supposed to be?

last nite, i once again slpt on the same bed with a GUY.

Kane fled to our room with his pillow, and slpt between me and ellen on the king size bed made up by two single beds.

and the day before, engseng slpt in our room on this bed.

and a few days ago, ellen went to her aunt's house. i fled to kane's room and slpt on the same bed with him and ah kok.

not forgetting that vodka nite, when five of us, shin, engseng, ellen, kane and me fell unconscious in our room on the same bed.

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for those who know, u can see the problem here. rite?

not that i mind. just that... is that a couple supposed to be?

or i shouldnt use the phrase 'supposed to'. =S

anw...

i understand them perfectly. the feeling of having the loved one to hug u to sleep is so sweet and unresistable. and it is the most wonderful thing that the first thing u see when u open ur eyes in the morning is the lovely face of ur guy/ ur gal.

and i know they won't cross the line. well, at least for the time being.

so actually i'm quite glad to give up my bed to them, although i will suan them whenever i can =P

but somehow... still feel weird. is it becos it's too fast? erm...

a bit worried. the feeling is seductive, but it can reach a climax fast also... then be gone fast as well...

dunno. if i just put myself in their shoes, i will surely hope my friend can give me chance to be alone with my guy one. so i cant apply a different standard on other people.

but... aiyohhhhhhh

grr.